The human heart is very confusing (Part 2 of 2) closure

It feels nice to have closure, 
to have been able to talk to you,
for us to be able to both share our feelings,
on a wonderful walk with me and you.

Both of us spoke many words and stories,
no tears shed, just honest opinions and thoughts on relationships and life,
too much going on then and needed rest,
fine a while ago but now off to university and life and the known of the unknown.

No more thinking what-ifs,
I can move on and let you live you life,
find my own path,
you go to the sun.

Thank you for being an amazing friend,
we will always be,
see you around,
My feelings can now go as I move on with closure, to the dawn of tomorrow.  

Leap of Faith

Sometimes, there comes an event in our lives that we just have to leap into and have trust in yourself. A very large aspect of this "leap of faith" philosophy right now in my life is asking a special girl out. I'm not going to go into any detail due to respect of privacy, (and common sense) but I just want to say that I have learned in the past to always follow your heart and at least TRY, or else you will be plagued with regret and the "what-ifs". If it will be a yes or a no, I am unsure, but never being in a relationship before, either way it is going to be a "learning curve" and a fun experience. At this point in time, I really don't mind if it a yes or no. I just want to know the answer so I can move on with my life. Honesty is key. She is a smart, beautiful, fun and mature woman, and I know we will be great friends either way, so as one famous doctor once said... "Allons-y!"

The Glass

I dropped a fragile glass, that has shattered into a million pieces.

I feel injured from it, both from the pain of such a beautiful glass being destroyed, as well as the shards scarring my foot.

Did I take the glass for granted, or was this the way that things are suppose to be? Am worthy of such a glass being in my hands in the first place?

I may never know, for the glass lays cold, and broken on the ground. My heart shattered into a million million pieces.

The human heart is very confusing (Part 1 of 2) Before

I see you with my eyes, yet feel you with my heart,
The emotions that describe you cannot become words,
for if they did, they would not be able to describe you,
because there are no words to describe how brilliant you truly are.

I first met you a while back, shy and new in my life,
A flame newly lit,
yet still burning,
Was this love? Then, I just never knew.

Over time, the sands eroded the confusion and showed the truth,
I fell in love with you,
all of you,
the good of all that was and remains to be you.

There you were in my life every day,
the reason I went to events was to be with you even it was for a few seconds,
it was worth every second,
I love you.

The question remained though,
do you love me too?
We've spent so much time together telling stories and I have gotten to know you,
and you gotten to know me.

Do you share the same feelings?
I really cannot tell,
Are these hangouts and smiles genuine,
Or are you with another one of the guys?

I work so hard, yet none at all,
I should reveal my feelings,
yet past mistakes raise the stakes,
the grueling feeling of failure.

I want to ask you out so much,
yet will thou say yea or neh?
My friends and yours support me,
but is there another player in the Frey?

I don't want to hurt you,
did I ever before? 
I want this friendship to last forever,
so could it be more?

Only honesty will tell, let the game come to the end,
I want to say what I have to say, and  let you listen like you always do,
so let us go for a walk,
the human heart is confusing.

Love loops (triangles)

You know those times when You REALLY like one person, but that person you like REALLY likes this other person, but that other person doesn't like them, but the one person still likes them? Yeah. It sucks.

Sometimes you wish that it was a perfect world and everything worked out. That every time someone falls in love, that their opposite understands, and shares the feeling; that we are all magnets attracting the other halt.

One could avoid the pain, and the sadness when you find out the person you like doesn't feel the same way about you, but asks you for help getting this other person to fall in love with them, but that other person has the yearning to be with another person. This loop just goes on and on. Sometimes, you find a hole in the cycle, sometimes, things work out and its just like a wonderful, loving scene from a book. But I have not yet experienced that for myself.

The Many Wonderful Perks of Being Single

If you want to date me, please refrain from reading this blog ;^)

Hmm, Single while everyone else has a partner? Don't sweat it! (Pic by me)

Yes, I know, it's shocking. Perks of being single? What? Why? Well, for a long time, I've been moaning and groaning on both the past and the present about relationships and how they look so awesome, and I've wanted to experience one and all that. I finally took a step back and took a look at my situation. One day (hopefully) I will find that first true love person, and everything will sort its self out. Until then, guess what? i'm single. So why be sad about the cards your dealt? Sometimes, you just have to suck it up and 'deal' with it (Card pun, tee hee) So I looked at all the perks of being single, and it made life a little easier for me.

1. You can hang out with whoever you want: Since I don't have a girlfriend, I can hangout with any girl or guy I want without being questioned about 'loyalty.' I'm honestly an honest person, but I can live without all that drama of being 'taken.'
2. You still have Money: They say having another half is healthy for your soul, but disastrous for your pocket book. After every holiday, birthday etc... I've had friend groaning because they are spending so much money taking their boyfriend or girlfriend out. Luckily  I don't have to worry about it, and can save money for university, flying and single, anti-social things. 
3. Dreams of 'that' person: Since I'm single, I don't know what my future will be like! Will i meet someone in a coffee shop? In an airport? On the moon? Who knows! I can have hope of meeting that 'right' person to be with. 
4. Me time: While it can sometimes feel like a curse, having a lot of 'me' time feels great. You can sit, read, write, run and many other things whenever your life dictates, and you are free to do so instead of having to look after another person. 
5. Maturity: While dating seems to be apart of growing up, luckily  I've missed most of the drama and heartbreak that comes with 'young love.' Even if I have NEVER been in a relationship, I am always the friend who is counselling others about their relationships. I feel as if I have learned a LOT from being on the outside, and feel more mature about it.
6. Closer to friends: Without that other force in your life tearing you away, you can spend more times with friends! While it may feel like your stuck in the friend zones of all the girls you know, it still feels nice to be able to get close to everyone when being single. 
7. Personal development: This should be your top priority regardless of your relationship status, but being single means that you really only have one person to worry about: YOU!
8. Live your life: You have no tie downs! Let your wings soar! 

Is it ok for girls to ask the guy out? -My opinion

I have been asked the question many times by many people. Both male and female friends have asked me the same question: "Is it OK for a girl to ask the guy out instead of the guy doing it?" I am surprised that this is even a question in the first place. Of course! It honestly doesn't even matter! If you "like" someone, then ASK! Live your life! Don't live life in regret or like a robot and follow all these unsaid "social conventions." If you love someone, you love someone. It's that simple. If your a girl asking a guy out, as my friend would say: "You've got balls!" I just hope whoever your asking out deserves such an amazing woman like you. Plus, I will admit us guys are sometimes stupid at picking up hints. And guys, don't be afraid to ask her out!

That is all. What do you think? Comments bellow!